Yeah, it's 3.06am in the ungodly hell of a morning and I'm blogging. Because I always blog on the last day of a year and I'm invincible!

Yeah... Okay. I confess. I feel like shit now and all I want is to shove my head under my pillow and black out. Permanently, until...uh.... it's holidays again? :D Anyway I am up editing projects because I have to and I have no other time. I am about to head off for a project meeting in 6 hours time and afterward is work till 1am. Hallelujah!

So, the last day of the year. Year 2011.

It was a quick year. As usual, I still didn't know what I was doing. I made friends, quarreled (oh yeah, just recently), released my discipline and played like paradise. I felt stupidly hurt many times because of PMS and I thought my friends didn't want me!  I know, stop laughing. Thankfully for Triplets who kept telling me to love my body, love myself. Oh no, I still haven't come to terms with my body yet but I think I'll hate myself less. I fucked up relationships (Note: I do that a lot. I don't know why) and I'm still here... Alive.

Hoo-ray!

I've become a bitch. I look at others with skepticism. And my sarcasm went up another level. I'm not getting any better from last year right? Sigh. I've learnt a lot this year. I got scared many times when reality starts approaching. And I managed to figure myself out, like what I wished to in 2010.

Things are just going to be harder from now on. My insecurities, my PMS and who knows what! But you know, I turn around and see the path I had walked. And I know I will survive because all these years, I've been stepping on Life itself. I'm glad I am alive, even though haunted by many first world pains, I am alive.